It was strange coming back to Finland. At the same time so familiar and normal, but also freaky as the fact that we don’t have a home here any more really hit home and the whole thing became that much more real. I don’t really regret any of the choices I’ve made in life, I’ve always believed that all the things you go through shape you into the person you are, but I can’t deny that I felt a huge sense of loss when driving back from the airport and passing the junction to our old home. I had all these plans for the future and the visions always included living in that flat for some time to come. Letting go of it meant I had to let go of a lot of dreams. I think leaving that flat was ultimately a lot more difficult that leaving Finland ‘for good’.
The weather has been gorgeous so far. We had a barbecue and a belated Vappu celebration on mum’s patio with sima and tippaleipä. Mmmm lovely.